Tuesday, May 05, 2009

I'm not ready for this....

I've been applying to staffing agencies, and today I heard about three different job offers. I refused all of them on the basis of salary/commute issues, but...staffing agencies are going to be calling me. I hadn't even really thought about that, despite my applications. Everybody keeps saying there are no jobs in Michigan, and here I got three offers in a day and refused them all. (All justified rejections under the rules of MI UIA as I understand them.) These jobs can go to three other unemployed people, but am I being reasonably reserved or am I being way too stuck up about jobs? Are the agencies going to start hating me for being picky?

Financially, I'm okay on unemployment for a while. Do I take the first job that comes along (obviously I haven't, but the first job that comes along after I catch my breath), even if my heart is sinking, or do I hold out, knowing as I do that few job descriptions sound exciting to me?

I'm not ready to go back to work. There it is. I feel like I should feel worse about that, but I don't want to be back in an office. 

I'm afraid of being trapped for years doing something that doesn't excite me, or of job-hopping in the hopes of finding something I enjoy (one of those things I internally mocked other people for...figures I'd understand it eventually). I'm afraid of getting a job and finding the environment is as tense as it was at my old place of employment for the past year or so. I'm afraid of picking Door #1 when I should have waited for Door #2, or passing on Door #2 when it turns out there is not Door #3. I'm afraid of leaving a job on purpose more than I am of being laid off, of finding something better a week after I found a job (this happened to me last time). 

Pause. Collect yourself. You're going to have to go back into the trenches sooner or later. Settle. Prepare. 

1 comment:

  1. "Are the agencies going to start hating me for being picky?"

    Yes, in my experience even though they won't admit it after they offered me ONE job and I turned it down whenever I talked to them they said nothing was available. But this for general factory labor, not office work.

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